Thursday, January 10, 2008
a year gone by - a year ahead
A NEW YEAR:
Daren and I were having an awesome chat with friends one morning at a coffee shop while we were away...incredible chat - the kind that i actually classify under NEED. Not just the "hi how are you" but the kind that you walk away from feeling like you've grown a little bit and like you've truly seen into another person a little bit. That was my new years resolution last year...to let myself be more vulnerably honest. I don't know how i've done so i'll continue to work on that one.
Sitting around sipping coffee that morning, the question was ask..."on a scale from 1-10 where are you on the happiness scale - and why?" As I sat there listening to what the other 3 said and thinking about my own answer I realized some things about myself...things that i've continued to think about - things that i'm going to change this year so that I can with complete honesty say "10".
I love the west coast - it's not home for now - but it's the place I go and feel like i've reconnected with a part of me. i realize how little i let my world become...and it's a time where it's opened up again. it takes only a couple walks on a nature trail hike amongst the mossy trees, and moist dark earth...and i start to see me - the things loved, the things needed, the ways i need to change & grow, and the things to accept - to let just "be". I see dreams & how i need simplicity.
And along with it, this year it felt incredible - getting to celebrate 1 year of being married to the person i just cannot get enough of - the person who is so like me and right for me that it never ceases to amaze me.
HERE'S TO A YEAR OF REMEMBERING WHAT I'M THINKING & FEELING RIGHT NOW - A YEAR OF WORKING TOWARDS A GOAL - A YEAR OF GROWING INTO A 'REAL' PERSON.